Should I go Skinny or stay Fat?

As of now, I;ve been conscious about my body recently. Not that I don't mind being chubby as of right now, it's just because I don't look feminine enough. Kinda hard to try when you're a guy, is in Senior High, and have people that still think you're straight but in reality I'm a transgender tomboy in spirit. I genuinely would feel more comfortable if I had a somewhat feminine body and wore men's clothes 'cuz I think it looks fun, lol. I know that I have to lose weight if I'm planning to take HRT, although regardless I'm just being impatient to have my desired body type that I want. I could use some exercises that could help me achieve it but I sometimes struggle to have a proper routine and timing around that idea, albeit I just feel scared to be caught in the middle of it. The inside of my house is a bit small and I feel shy to do it outside, on front of our house, because people walking by could see me doing unnatural exercises for a guy like me. Perhaps, in my Semester Break, I could try then. Would I succeed? Probably not, although it's better to try than not to.

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