About Hatred.. It twists me. (9/23/25)

I might be that I'm a bit high tempered or so that, my boredom is exceeding beyond what I am lacking right now. Although, I hate Hate. I dislike being in a grumpy mood but I sometimes can't get annoyed by others that are trying to live out their lives by just slacking off or being a nuisance in class. It puzzles me as a person of despite I'm with individuals with a higher caliber of educational understanding; They lack from social interpretation. Perhaps by the fact they were taught to be obedient and uphold their standards into other people, however that is not my business if their hypothesis of, "Helping", doesn't work in their favor.

My expectations are not tangible because people have their own lives and I, by default, is not apart of it. Whether I helped them or not, they would forget about me and forget whatever good I did for them unless we keep in contact. Actually.. Now I think about it: I was asking for praise for too much. Being a show-off today. I hate that. But...May it be in the wrong to say that I just wanted to show my little hard work in class?; Perhaps. Was I being too annoying about it to my teacher about it? Oh, totally a Yes. I should keep myself calm in all times -- Being excited gets me killed me anyway.